I’ve decided to actually go to an AA meeting for the first time, next week on Wednesday it will be. I’m not scared of actually going to the meeting, I mean, I have no problem speaking in front of people, I’m just somewhat scared of finally realizing that I must say goodbye to alcohol forever…….
Saying goodbye to alcohol is something I simply MUST do. If I don’t, then I think I might be dead within 5 to 10 years. Booze isn’t fun anymore, it hasn’t been fun for a year or so actually, it’s just been “open bottle of vodka, drink it, blackout, repeat”.
I’m going to be in mourning, in mourning because it will really feel like I’ve lost something that has given me so much joy in the past, along with a lot of pain, but it’s the good times I’ll remember like we all do with loved ones who’ve died. I’m going to miss it dearly, but all things must come to an end, don’t they.
What spurred this on? Well, part of it was spending the 200 dollars I got for my birthday on booze, part of it was the fact that my creativity and inventiveness and zest for life actually came back in full force when I went 7 days sober recently – I mean, I felt fucking awesome, and part of it was talking to people on Reddit’s #stopdrinking group of which I’m a member.
Has anyone gone through anything similar to what I’ve been through, troubles with alcohol? Your comments will be very much appreciated, thanks.