I seem to have developed a withdrawal symptom….from….alcohol, what else!? egh.
It manifests itself as a dull feeling of pressure in my head, on my top right temple area to be exact. I thought it could be the beginning of a cold or flu or something, but as I started drinking tonight (I relapsed a few days ago) that pain in my head went away very quickly. Now, this could just be the alcohol dulling my nerves in general causing the pain to go away, or it could be a legitimate withdrawal symptom I’m stopping by drinking.
This is a little bit of a worry. It’s the only withdrawal symptom along with insomnia that I’ve ever had! I’ve never had the shakes or the vomiting or any of that shit, thank the Lord! I’m not sure why I’ve never had the bad withdrawals, seeing as I’ve gone on two/three week binges at times, still nothing too bad coming off of that. I dunno, maybe my body is simply blessed!
But, I’ve got enough vodka for one more night I reckon, so starting Sunday night/ Monday morning, I shall be documenting EVERY single day of my next sobriety attempt, EVERY single thought and feeling etc.
The strange thing is; I’ve been feeling pretty damn good recently. I’m actually quite optimistic about life, my job, my love-live, all of that stuff is going great, but I STILL decided to drink again……….the human brain is a fucking idiot-box at times!