I have quite a severe anger problem.
Online video games, which I love, bring it out most of anything. I will scream at the monitor, the keyboard, the fucking mouse-pad, anything!
The incompetencies of others is another thing that makes me much more than normally angry. There are several people I work with who don’t do their jobs well enough. I HHHHHAAAAATTTTEEEE those people in those moments when I find out they’ve cut a corner or whatnot.
My own inadequacies, the most anger-producing thing in my life – – my lack of success, wealth and power, although all those things mean jackshit in the long run, STILL make me physically angry, I’m talking heightened heart rate, tight chest, fidgety limbs etc.
I’m guessing no one who has ever read this Blog has ever thought I might have a bad problem with anger, but I do.
Just to be clear, I’ve never been physically abusive towards any other person because of my anger, never. But, as much as it pains me to say this, I really cannot rule this out as a possibility………..and that’s truly scary to think about.
What do I do? I drink tea every day, I do relaxed breathing everyday, I smoke to relax me (it really does help), maybe if I drank again, that’d help, I was never an angry drunk……